I think about you often

It's just that my love is still 

dead nailed in a black coffin

Not understanding 

You were forth then you went back

to come forth again

while I am still back

So much as happened

I feel trapped

and I can't

find my peace of mind

Forth and then back again

Don't make this a trend

I want to hold you, but I can't

I want to touch you, but I can't

I want to smell the sweet scent of you, but I can't

I want to look into your eyes, but I can't

I want to feel your warm body next to mine, but I can't

All I can do is think about what I can't do.

You're a scary individual

Because I am missing you

And all I can think about

is your cool intellectual

style and grace

But you waste 

it on things that aren't worth

your time

Things that pull you lower

within the dirt and the grime

You have so much to look forward to

in life

But you keep yourself locked down

in misery and strife

Your knowledge confuses you

what you think are facts remove you

Only to pull you lower 

into the depths

no more shallow

just waves of death

Pull yourself out

And I'll be there waiting for you

without a doubt

Educate me

Relate to me

Shape me

Mold me

Hold me

Console me 

I'm trying to reach my highest good

But I keep being misunderstood

Tell me

Show me

Know me

Don't try to control me

I'm trying to reach my deep inner soul

But I keep missing my goal

Touch me

Caress me

Make love to me

Challenge me

I'm trying to reach me

But some how I've lost me

and gained you

I'm such a fool

What's happening within the world today

Only strife and haterade

People killin one another over a dollar

Something that was man made and has no power

Why aren't we taking care of our babies

Just maybe

If we step back and challenge our minds

Cut the TV off and write some rhymes

Be creative think of new ways

That me and you can make a difference

and save this day

War is everywhere

Strife and nobody seems to care

Tell me how are you gonna make a change

If you're too busy giving the devil more fame

Take a step back and realize

that we only have 1 planet and this 1 life

Only bring the love not the pain

Stop

And take time out and help others to gain

Seek your spirituality

And your faith

Just work on one thing

Making this world a better place

 

So Many Tears

So many tears

have been shed

the stains were

wedded to my 

soft spoken face

I've shed tears 

of joy more for

pain

But as each tear

soaked up the 

happiness on my 

cheek, I realized

that I am not weak

not meek 

I am me.  No 

matter from what

they see, they'll never 

take away my tenacity

to persevere.

 

A Brand New Day

It's a brand new day

I've been awakened

I have been shown

The brand new day

I feel so brand new

It was like a passing

thought when I spoke 

to you

I can't believe how you

made me smile

I felt all giddy, innocent

almost like a child

It's a brand new day

full of adventure, I'm

glad I've been shown

what can be 

without malice like a queen 

that I am

sitting on her thrown. 

Hey Hey Hey

Look Look Look

I ain't going no where, I am just here

thinking about how I can get you to put it on pause

you moving so fast, you taking it to another level

you ain't ready for me.

Hey Hey Hey

Look Look Look

You aren't enjoying life because you're always

Moving Moving Moving

Well

So stop!  Take the time to experience life

don't let life make it an experience for you! 

Got a new gig

Shiny new purple ball

I swing to my left

making the pins fall

They stand so white 

Waiting for the purple

sphere to mow  them down

Ready to knock them

into the stratosphere

but I am puttin my time in

this is  my healing gig 

I got steps to make my amends

Need something make my tens

Got a new gig

taking down some wood

I'm the new queen on the alley

Fixin to be throne

Once I get passed this 83

My cover is blown.

Thought You Got Me....
Thought you had me trapped
think again
Never a sin
I'm smarter than that
cuz yo plan is and was wack
I just reversed it
and threw it back
All on to your weak ass mind
Vibrating at your lowest self
You'll do anything to stack me back on your trophy shelf....
But you gotta remember son
I'm stronger than what you may think
I played you like "the weakest link"
you've underestimated me many
they say
but you better rise up to this info
and realize this is a new day....

Even though I told you to go/I didn't want to make it so/But you left me with no choice/Feeling alone as if I have no voice/Thinking back I am trying to understand/When we were in love and being together was the ultimate plan/But now I stand here only thinking of you/Confused and alone as everyday is blue/How can I find that love once more/Thinking it's around each and every door/What I thought I had with you was true/I find myself not understanding the truth/Come and hold me now/be with me again and lets take our vows/Together I know we can walk hand and hand/My ultimate gift was to give you all that I am..... 

Blame

Who do I blame for the way I feel?

I keep trying to wake myself up

This truly can't be real...

I'm in a different space and time

I aimlessly walk around as if I have no mind

I am mad at myself

Only because my unconditional love has been dealt

Like a deck of used up set of Vegas cards

I never thought loving you could be this hard..... 

As each second moves by

I know the minutes will begin to fly

Hours will become days

No longer will I be in a daze 

Feeling crazed within this life like a maze

I'll feel so much better 

The sun will shine again

The death of this relationship 

will help me to begin again

I place no blame upon you 

Like I said before, I'm not mad

Yes, sad...

But that is to be expected

From this fallen crest, I'll return

Tto stay at my highest best.....

I AM THE SUN

I AM WARM

I AM BRIGHT

I AM EVERLASTING

WITHOUT ME EVERYTHING CEASES TO EXIST

YOU COUNT ON ME TO BE THERE

YOU LOOK FOR ME EACH & EVERYDAY

WITHOUT ME YOUR DAYS ARE GLOOMY & GRAY

I AM STRONG WITH ALL MY MIGHT

YOU NEED ME GIVE YOU LIGHT

YOU ARE NOW WITHIN DARKNESS WITH NO PATH

I WILL NOT EVEN THINK OF UNLEASHING MY WRATH

I AM TO GREAT FOR THAT

JUST REMEMBER

WHEN YOU COME CRAWLING BACK

I'm not saying that I need you still....

I'm not saying that I want you still...

I'm not saying that I like the way things are...

I'm not saying that I'm feeling this is the best thing either...

All I am saying is that I don't  miss you much anymore.....

It has taken me so long

to feel the way I do

My journey has been tough

But I made it 

And now I'm healed

I've sealed.....

sealed it with a kiss

I love me more than you

The universe

has the infinite power

ask and it is given